enigmatic

OK. So I was playing Battlefield 2 online against the Americans tonight and everything was going well untill a couple of American users decided to cheat. I had a clear shot of one of them and they simply vanished from the screen. I warned my team about this and nothing was done... Then tempers started to occur and I start to lose it. I kicked the table with slight rage and then I heard a dense thud noise. I quickly looked down and saw my external hard drive on the floor. I quickly quit out the game, picked it up hoping it would work and it didn't..Now it is in the freezer as last hope after spending hours trying software to replenish the 300gig HD. Having it for no longer 4 months I am slightly sad to have lost some current downloads but it's not a problem, just a slight problem as I need to purchase another one now...DOH! Fucking cheating bastards!

Wow I hear the milk man whizzing by in his milkfloat..

Anyway thank god I have backed most of my important information on other hard drives otherwise I would be very pissed off indeed. It's a shame that my life revolves around this damn computer..I can't imagine my life without this PC but in true respect if I didn't have a PC I would perhaps live a normal life and not always feeling stressed about PC complications such as this one im dealing with now..Such is life..Technology sucks. If this freezer thing works for me again then I'll be ok, if not then you win some and lose some, i'll just go shopping and get another one..

I have a Battlefield 2 online match against the Americans tonight on a private server. I belong to an elite clan with about 10 years of FPS experience. If I come in the top 5 I will be very happy tonight as my rankings have dropped recently. I kinda mix beer with online gaming and that's a big NO. Other clan memebers suspect I have been drunk while fighting and have warned me about kicking me off the roaster list so I shall obey and have fun tonight. Don't get me wrong I love Americans's but these ones that play online deserve to be punished. We have had trouble over the past with ratings simply because there too good but with 3 new members in our clan we are taking back the respect.

I love online games, My top 3 games are Battlefield, Unreal 2005 and Counterstrike Source.

Recovering from a slightly mild hangover I woke up and did some things in the outside world..Came back looked at this blog and oh man did I write some crap in my last blog. It was so bad with many spelling mistakes and even wrong years I just had to remove it. WW2 started 1939 and ended 1945 so why I wrote 'kinda 20 years ago' is just bizzare for me and I must of been quite intoxicated. To tell you the truth England isn't such a bad place but I really think if I am able to shine within myself then I should move someplace else. The reason I give, well us Brits all know deep down times are changing and it's sad to say that the UK is very slow at catching up. Sorry but it's the truth.

I’m not sure why it is...But it is. This island is too small and way too narrow minded for anyone with genuine skills to gain any type of fortune.. It's always hand-selected.. For 4-5 years I have sent off tapes to magazines then later record companies and you can always guess the outcome. Man I hate this country for being soooo shallow minded, for example when have we ever won the Eurovision contest this decade alone? Ok perhaps that was a bad example but you know what I mean. Ever since teaming up with America it's like all of us Brits don't exist...we don't register on there map of fortune. To me we do live in Nazi Britain. It certainly feels that way

I have to admit that's a pretty high iq for someone like me. I didn't have a good start in life but after school I accelerated my education by myself. Learning from books and the internet was a god send for me and I have to say I have had arguments with professors in the past about all types of things.. I kinda get into trouble over memory recall rather than Intelligence based arguments and that's what does my head in..Perhaps that's why I 100% hate society, the whole template et all....I have no idea what's going on anymore..

I am fresh breeze 29 and the reason why I have changed is simply because I forgot my password...bugger...Oh well, Nothing in my life has changed since my last post although I have been trying to gain points in the ladder of fortune on yahoo chat and Paltalk. I create music as a major hobby of mine so of course I should expose it, but I don't think the Americans are ready for such sound...not yet anyway...once melody music is back in fashion they will remember me from 3 years ago with my tunes...they shall..if not then they either have bad taste in music or there simply tone deaf..

The title says it all.

I have been to 15 diffrent countries so far including America, Most of Europe and Asia and NOTHING beats the quality of our confectionary. Nothing. If the goverment stop this then I will kill them all.

I am very quiet until you speak to me.
I am always polite and I respect everyone without being judgemental.
I am open-minded and Intelligent.
I am Unique above all common traits.
I can express the way I feel well in words.
I am very creative with the ability to think in 3D.
I can solve problems quite quickly
I am not able to look after myself well as I would like to.
I am not able to come to grips with this terrorism shit.
I am not able to focus without deep thinking.
I am not able to keep a hold of society without feeling fake.
What I am is unique

The reason why I have selected the video Unfinished sympathy by Massive attack is simply because it reminds me how I feel within society. I have walked down countless busy streets and it's like im invisible. People just stare straight through me like im not there or somthing. Don't get the wrong idea about me as im not trying to gain there attention or anything. I just get a strong sense of being alone in this world and this video which I first saw when I was 18 reminds me on how alone some of us are too.